Firstly @Decadian - well done for starting your (own) new thread. That is a really big step and shows great strength Having a place for your own story and having the support you deserve in sharing this is not only a massive step but also can be a very healing one. You have shown such tremendous support to so many on here and now it is your turn to have a place where that can be returned to you.
I may not be able to relate to what you are going through but I can offer an ear (or in this case my eyes to read) and maybe a soft place for you to land (I've got plenty of pillows).
With you my friend
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