Support for Flowerlove22

[Sunnyside226]

I don't know why I tagged them I just didn't want to get a email  I guess it's better safe then sorry I guess 

@Dreamy I can't sleep either. Sitting here thinking   about puppies LoL 

 Forgot to ask how's Casper?    Here if you want to chat. 

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 I'm sure they won't mind you tagging them, they are there to help. 

Lol thinking about puppies, I mean I guess it's better than thinking about other things. 

Casper is doing well, currently hogging my pillow and snoring in my ear 😂. 

[Sunnyside226]

There's a couple I went and seen 2 weeks me and my partner are going to visit other 2    let's just  say I think Sunnyside has a little soft  spot 😂  ( it growing on me) lol 

😂😂 Ohh Casper hogging your pillows but that snoring in ear would be annoying 😂😂 @Dreamy      

[Sunnyside226]

Life is hard 

Wanna delete account    just feel over everything   

Hated  not enough  trying hard to just fall down      everything feels difficult today it's only Tuesday    

[Dreamy]

Hello @Sunnyside226, I can hear that things feel hard for you right now. I'm really glad you are still here and I love being able to chat to you. 

Has something happened today that has made you feel this way? 

I'm here for you, you are not alone ❤️ 

[Sunnyside226]

I kinda feel hopeless/worthless on here      all the relationships I made are over falling apart or are over on here  nobody wants to chat  with me anymore 

Only you @Dreamy     this place is to have "friends" connection connect. Meet people just like you  yet out of 400,00 people I talk to one person    

Feels like nobody understands me  or I'm different    maybe  it's me  trying to hard to please others     

since been on here I've made many mistakes said the wrong things. Told you can't say that or this has it stress others. It's like walking on eggshells trying not to say the wrong things   learning put (tw) on things    

Everything feels like it's falling apart  I'm trying to stay afloat  

I know people get busy. If you see me trying to connect or saying "Hello".  It only takes 2 minutes out of someone time to say hi sunny I'm ok   it's nice to hear from you  I'm trying my best  I ain't perfect    

I've already had a bad day  not even 3 yet 

@Dreamy   sorry for a big ramble  it's been building up  

I'm making a coffee going to sit down   go from there  

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 i hear you. Whilst there are so many people connected to the forums not all of them come here to chat regularly. I've gotten myself in trouble on here aswell but the mods and peer support workers are understanding and they do help correct things if we make mistakes and they can add those TW if we can't or forget. I do understand the feeling like you are walking on eggshells, it's hard to word things the right way when things are feeling so intense and everything is racing.

Have you ever thought about joining in when they do the Sunday night chats? Or there is quite a few threads where you can connect with others and just have a general chat. I'm happy to tag you in some if you wanted to try and make some new connections here 😊.

I'm having a cuppa aswell so can I join you please? More than happy to sit here with you and chat 😊.

I personally think you are amazing and really treasure our chats that we have ❤️

[Sunnyside226]

@Dreamy   that's the thing when do you put (tw) on things half the things I say I don't put tw on them  because to me it doesn't need it   like If I said I had a plan to si yes I'll put a tw on it  saying I'm feeling suicidal or whatever it I won't/don't put tw because I don't see it has it be that serious     

We can't all know what triggers everyone ,  everyone has their days where everything is a trigger  it's hard for me to know   

There's a couple of place on here I've been chatting on      

I do get lost easily finding my way back to my page   lol 

yeh your welcome to join me for a cuppa 

@Dreamy   I feel so stupid worthless saying that 

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 yeah it can be hard to know, it's usually talking about specific traumatic events and yes SI and SH. But its ok if you forget or don't think it needs it cos the mods or peer support workers will add it in if they think it's necessary. 

I'm glad you have found a couple of places to chat here and yes it can be hard to navigate back to your own thread, i get stuck with that sometimes especially when I get swamped with a million notifications 😂.

I'm having a cup of green tea, and yes I realise that comment just made me sound really old 😂.

I know that stupid and worthless feeling but I just want to say that you are neither of those things. 

[Sunnyside226]

It's life it's only life   

I feel so angry  I wanna see mum  i feel stuck    feeling hopeless because i feel like I'm running in different ways   

I'm still thinking about deleting the account 

Green tea  sounds ok  that comment you it made me feel old 😂   we get old one day it just takes time 😂 gray hairs come Frist 😆

@Dreamy I got my coffee now  I'm sitting and chatting with you 

Any plans for the afternoon?  

Sydney is in hell with the rain and wind