Recovering from a psychotic episode at the moment.

[Bunniekins]

@DownMoreThanUp   hey DownMoreThanUp sorry to hear your lack of sleep is still causing you grief.  did you see my post re drinking coffee to send you to sleep? i know it sounds counterintuitive but it works for me.  meds for my heart and my psychosis also help me.  i still get up during the night around 2.30-3am so if i am awake i will log on and see if you are there.  take care my friend. bun

[DownMoreThanUp]

@Bunniekins  No coffee does not stop me nor gets me to sleep. It is my mind it is going non stop, nothing seems to be able to slow it down let alone stop it.

i'm not manic nor depressed and have had no voices, just exhausted and longing for a good night sleep, haven't had one of those for years.

i had hoped the AD would have done it, but then i find out it caused my lung damage and breathing problems came around after only using it once.

Last night i tried a sleeper but it did not work and when i did finally fall asleep it was only for a few hours.

(peering through the Matrix at my friends at Sane!)

Peering at you all my friends

Our nearest (3Km) beach on a warm and Sunny day in Albany!

Taken on a warm sunny Day

[DownMoreThanUp]

@Bunniekins @Dimity @rav3n @RiverSeal @holdinghope5 

i had a great Sunday/father's day yesterday. First i had 4 1/2 hours sleep in one setting, and secondly i got an extra two hours more sleep, after drinking a few shots of the whiskey (and eating cherries liqueur chocolates,) i got for father's day.😁

However at around 12:00pm tonight i already awoke the new day a nightmare, after only 1 1/2 hours sleep, and i have not been able to get back to sleep since.

Rather downish at the moment. A sad inner turmoil, kind of smouldering within, literally hurting me my reality physically. Strange how that can be. Anyone else get that?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXzDu071RdQ&list=RDMMY4tHEwWLMJM&index=20

i hope i will get some more sleep soon. i might have to take a sleeper to doze off.

[Dimity]

"Rather downish at the moment. A sad inner turmoil, kind of smouldering within, literally hurting me my reality physically."

Yes @DownMoreThanUp that feeling is very familiar.

Glad you had a goodish day.

Sorry to hear sleep is still elusive.

[Bunniekins]

@DownMoreThanUp  hugs and hugs.  lack of sleep is torture i know only too well.  when i am manic i tend to do crazy stuff like walk out into the night at 3am .... my daughter locks the front door so i dont go wandering... take care xx

[DownMoreThanUp]

Content/trigger warning

(This song may trigger)

My life is often just like this. i'm sure many of you relate. This is why i appreciate, love, kindness, forgiveness, grace and mercy to rule my heart, so i can survive these saddest of times.

Content/trigger warning

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FfZKFGMoGE&list=RD5Cn2pMDgprk&index=5

[Dimity]

Thanks for posting that song @DownMoreThanUp .

[rav3n]

hey @DownMoreThanUp sorry to hear that the sleep hasn't been good, i imagine that getting those nightmares makes it even more tiring. i feel my mood is lower when i'm not sleeping too well too, i hope you're able to get better rest this week ✨

i love that songs have the perfect words to express what we're feeling. i always feel less alone when the lyrics understands me.

[DownMoreThanUp]

Thanks a lot! Yes i love those two songs as well. Especially the sad song spoke to me today.

Here another awesome song, as a psychotic person i relate to a lot. By a very different kind of singer called Jacob Lee. 

This song relates to hearing voices. Those horrible voices who torment suffering.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_CzcgezyUk4&list=RD_CzcgezyUk4&start_radio=1

[DownMoreThanUp]

@rav3n @Dimity @Bunniekins @RiverSeal @holdinghope5 

My wife and me went to visit our daughter in her new home today. She was very excited to see us. i i shared her some music videos for her TV, and after a few hours time well spend we left again.

Already on the way home (about 25 minutes driving,) i began to feel unwell, and by the time we came home i was very unwell and went straight to bed hoping i would sleep it off

Fat chance. The nausea came in heavy bouts, leaving me feeling very unwell, and lasted all the way till after 11pm tonight. i did not even dare to get up for last time i felt this unwell i collapsed on my way to the toilet and scared the shit out of my wife trying to get me to come back to some state of consciousness again washing my sweat soaked face with cold water did the trick in the end.

Luckily the nausea has gone down now, but i still feel very unwell, and bed seems like a bad place to be. It almost gives me trauma memories thinking about trying to go to sleep at the moment, for this is how unwell i have been tonight, and other times before.

Hopefully i will see a doctor on Thursday and i be able to get something to bring these nausea bouts down, as well as get something to knock me off for a good night sleep instead of sleeping only a few hours here and there.

Hoping all of you are sound asleep and well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pONRYVXtUNk&list=RDHpEwm63k1_w&index=3