I can’t cope

[tyme]

Sorry to hear about what happened and that you feel so lonely and broken. What would be helpful from the forums? Connection? Distraction?

I read on the Sunday intention thread about Pix getting all excited with her treat. I wish we had videos on the forums, then I could see it!

I'm thinking that living alone can sometimes cause people to feel a lack of love and support. Then again, if you lived with someone, you'd probably want to run away! So I guess we have to lump in the bad with the good?

Also, with your bestie, isn't she the one who is a scatterbrain? I know you said she forgot, but if she didn't forget, and you went out, how would you feel about it? @Captain24 

Oh, and way to go for the cleaning today!

I don't know about the buzzing. I think after missing a day on the forums, I just get excited to see people? Who knows?

[AuntGlow]

I am sure she would be happy to hear from you, but I get why this thought might come to mind. I do genuinely believe people care about you more than you might realise. @Captain24 ☺️

[Captain24]

Probably connection for the loneliness @tyme. As for being broken, I don’t know, I don’t know how to fix it. 

I have an awesome video of me asking her if she wanted a treat! I really wish you could see it! 

Yeah.. I get that living alone causes that but it’d be worse if I had to balance having someone here all the time. 

We hadn’t work out a time or a place. If it isn’t what she wants to do at the time she just says she didn’t know about it. It’s really just what suits her when it suits her. 

I needed to talk last night so I messaged you knowing that you weren’t around but need to talk

[Captain24]

I don’t know @AuntGlow. No one reaches out to me it’s up to me to check in on them. 

[tyme]

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@Captain24 wrote:

I don’t know @AuntGlow. No one reaches out to me it’s up to me to check in on them. 

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I guess people probably say the same too. That no one reaches out. Which reminds me, I need to reach out to someone because she messaged me this morning to contact her! 

I guess it's society nowadays. Pretty hectic.

I'm guilty for not checking in on people, and for not responding to people. 

My brain has so much, that I get lost as you know.

Do you have anything on tomorrow?

[Captain24]

I guess and that’s why I like to check in with people so that they don’t feel the same way that I do. @tyme So that they feel like someone cares about them. My friend that I saw in Kiama, the good one, she messaged me when she got home and said she couldn’t believe someone would travel that far just to see her. 

I don't have anything. I need to do some ironing and wash my hair. That’s about it. Tuesday I’m going away for the day with mum. 

Wgat do you have on tomorrow? 

[tyme]

I'm always doing things so I don't check in with people. By the time I slow down or log off after the forums, it's after 10pm, and there's no 'schedule send' function on the phone so the msg goes to them later @Captain24 That's the prob.

Tonight, I feel like studying. I feel like going back to that other course I started already and finishing the assignments. I think I need to call up the org to see if my course is still valid!

Do you even think you'll go back to your studies? If so, we can do it together!

Tuesday with your mum sounds lovely. Come to think of it, you don't have long to go in terms of your holidays!

This coming holidays will be busy for me. We are going camping again, then my sister has booked a trip to the zoo, and I hope to take some people out for coffee with the kids. Then the two weeks of school holidays will be over.

I still have a lot of hours I need to take off here... don't know when I'll do that.

Tomororw? Um.. I might go and visit that house in the morning, then finalise that last sticky note task. Then I'll start on my new sticky notes.

[AuntGlow]

I can sometimes feel this way too, I am definitely more of an initiator. @Captain24 

Could people be used to you taking the reigns at all? 🤔

[Captain24]

I have that problem too when I’m working. I check my messages at work and forget to respond when I get home as it’s usually dinner and bed and nightshift makes it hard too @tyme 

Studying sounds good. I don’t think I’ll ever go back. It was just way too hard and I have no idea where to search and how to reference it. I’m just too dumb. It didn’t make me feel good at all. 

I go in October. So it’s not far away, I’ll only do a couple of blocks at work and then I’ll be off again. 

That sounds busy. Could you use some of your leave hours for that so you can spend the time with them? Not that I want you to go!! 

How many new sticky notes do you have? 

[Captain24]

I don’t know @AuntGlow. Your maybe they just don’t care, I don’t blame them though I’m not worth much