I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Hopefully I’m in it tonight too @Jynx. I don’t feel like doing much. Of I’m in it I can go to the toilet whenever I want which means I can actually have a drink!

My stomach pain is pretty bad. But I guess that’s what you get. The joys of having a uterus. 

I have trouble with body odour at times. Apparently that’s the whole change of life bullshit. Sometimes it doesn’t matter how much I shower it still stinks. It’s weird though as other times it’s fine. 

I slept well but I still have my cold so I woke up a couple of times with my nose blocked and woke myself up coughing. I’ve been coughing that much that my chest is really sore so it hurts. 

I feel like I just can’t catch a break.

The coordinator of the mental health group I go to wants to meet up for an hour or two this week to get to know me. I don’t want to do it but I guess I have to find time. I’ve let her have little bits of stuff but not a lot. 

[Captain24]

Hahaha this was the first thing on my newsfeed for Facebook! @Jynx 

 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 so wild that you can't take bathroom breaks otherwise 🫣 Fingers crossed!

Ugh, wish I could yeeterus my uterus. Feel your pain hun 😓

Oh I totally get that - I know I have been stressy when I get extra stinky haha. Found the best deodorant from Lush tho that seems to keep the majority of the stinky Jynxy at bay 😋

Aww hun. I wish you a swift recovery!! 

Oh true, you feeling nervous about it? Could be a good opportunity to figure out what kind of goals you might want to work towards in the group!

[Jynx]

Omg @Captain24 hahaha sooooo accurate 🤣

[Captain24]

You have to call up and ask to go to the bathroom. It’s always a yes but they have to reassign you so it’s annoying. It’s not like the guys that just hang it over the edge of the truck! @Jynx 

I use men’s deodorant while I’m working as it’s stronger and works better. But it doesn’t necessarily always work. 

Definitely nervous. It’s a long time and I don’t know what she wants to know. I told her I’d like to get to know her better to be nice but really I don’t care! 😂 I’m not sure the organisation of the group is for me. I don’t do chants and stuff and we don’t really talk about ourselves. I feel it’s toxic positivity and feels kinda like a cult. It’s so strict routine. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 feels very school-like haha. OMG whipping it over the side! Honestly, I can kinda understand penis envy... a little! Mainly just the ability to aim the stream 🤣🤣

Yeah those stress sweats can permeate deodorant so easily 😅

Maybe you could think of a few questions to ask to help you figure out if it is a good match? Like...

How much will we get to share our story? 

What is the rationale behind the chants?

How strict is the routine, and are there penalties if I can't keep to it? 

Stuff like that! 

[AuntGlow]

Good evening @Captain24!

How has your weekend been?

Oh, in response to your last message, I am referring to taking a break from work to help yourself recover from being unwell. 💖

Were you able to take any moments for you over the past couple of days? (It's okay if not, I know you're working hard out there 💪)

[Captain24]

I definitely have pen!s envy at work. @Jynx. This morning I was busting and there was no crib hit close by so I just pulled the truck up outta the way and jumped down! It’s hard to do that most of the time as there is too many people but I went to a place no one was near. That’s the country girl in me! 

I should ask questions as it’s really strange to me. But also I haven’t ever attended a group outside of hospital. 

Thanks for the weekend. I hope you have a good week off

[Captain24]

Hey @AuntGlow 

It’s been ok. Work has been okish but I’m glad it’s over. I did manage to sleep well though and my adhd meds are helping me stay awake through the shift, even at witching hour. 2-3 am! 

Sorry. That’s what it felt like to me but as we know I get things wrong all the time. I have a week off work in 2 weeks to go on holidays with mum and dad and all dogs. So most of my time is spent with them but I do get some time in the afternoons to myself when I go to the beach on my own. 

I didn’t really have anytime. It’s just work and sleep. I didn’t have a couple of Lego kits arrive that I ordered. I’ve made pretty big lists for my days off so I’m not sure if I’ll have time to do anything. Lists come first. 

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Captain24 

Just wanted to pop in and say hello! 

Glad to hear work was okay. Are you working again today or is it the start of your days off?