I can’t cope

[AuntGlow]

I am sorry to hear you have had a rough day... do you want to touch on any of it at all with me? @Captain24 

And my weekend was very busy! I have found an apartment to move to, which is a relief. I also did my show yesterday. Was very grateful for a sleep in this morning. Anxiety brain is a little loud for me at the moment, so please know you're not alone. 💛

[Captain24]

I’m glad you found an apartment.. I didn’t know you were looking. @AuntGlow. Oh.. the show.. how was it? Amazing? 

Sorry the anxiety voice is loud. That sucks. 

Just didn’t do anything much today. Been in bed for most of it. Not feeling it so I haven’t done most of my job list so I’m really beating myself up and it’s hard to add it to tomorrows list as I have a psych appointment right when I’d be bathing the dogs. Unless I can sort myself out and start them at 9 I should be done just before 11. But I can’t see me being ready that early. 

Im feeling like a failure and a waste of space.

[tyme]

Ello there @Captain24 

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

Hows things going? Do you feel like you are starting to catch up? 

[AuntGlow]

Ah, I thought I told you! Unfortunately I have to leave my current place, but I am looking forward to the change. @Captain24 

The performance was very fun! I am looking back at the things that went well and where I could improve, and trying not to be too hard on myself. (A difficult task!) Did you go through that process when you were performing?

It sounds like momentum has been challenging today... I understand why being productive is so important for you. Is there anything that is within your capacity tonight? Even a smaller task, for example?

[Captain24]

That would have been so stressful especially with the rental

market the way it is. @AuntGlow. Now the moving part that is challenging mentally as well. Where are you based roughly of course! 

I always would look back at what I could have done better but for me I was in several numbers. Sometimes 10+. 

Not really.. I’m now just watching tv. I did find a little bit of joy. I gave the dogs a bone each and win I told Pix she could have a bone she jumped around like a crazy dog!!! 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ! Sorry this is taking so long to respond. 

No, I don't feel like I've caught up at all! I'm also chasing my tail today!

I'm determined to get on the right foot tomorrow!

Arghh.... 

How's everyting been for you? I read that you got a few things done today?

[Captain24]

It’s ok. I know how busy it is @tyme 

How did your meeting go? That’s a bugger I was hoping you would get a little bit caught up. Are you chasing your tail as there is just too much to do or you get distracted? 

Nit much I had three meals and packed the dishwasher and unpacked it. Nothing even close to what had to be done. I wanted to change my sheets and doona cover and bath the dogs. So it’ll now have to wait until Wednesday and add onto that list. 

[tyme]

Why Wednesday @Captain24 ?

Are you busy tmorrow? (Sorry, I'm not snooping. My brain is just trying to understand because I thought you were off work)

Glad to hear you are still getting your meals sorted.

[Captain24]

I have a psych appointment tomorrow at the time I’d be bathing them but I just have Pix a bone and she gets runny bums afterwards so I’m not bathing her while she is having those issues!! 😂 @tyme 

Im really trying with meals. I only had something little and no veggies for dinner but I made myself have something. The voice was saying no though. It’s exhausting fighting it, it just another layer to add to everything else. 

Do you need an accountability buddy?