Substance abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, PTSD ADHD, and Psychotic Disorder

[Fadednfried223]

TW: mentions substance abuse, injury, loss, etc.

Hey, I'm kind of new here. Lately I've really been struggling. Some songs trigger me and/or social media to the point where I'm changing clothes and shoes to fit a look. Sometimes i fade out and its been an hour. Sometimes tears just roll down my face as I fade out.

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I'm abusing substances and I cant stay clean but I think what's the point. Im usually abusing uppers but im so tempted to go down the slow route. Its getting scary as, i dont even know this alternative personalities. 

Last year my head was injured by someone with status, I was kidnapped, My mate passed, My nan died and put down my dog (Had him for 14 years), lost my job, family fell apart, had a psychotic break. Im clean from one particular drug but i can smell it around the corner.

I cant even focus in class, im putting on this face, 

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getting high is the only thing i can do to get through.

I just fade out with nothing. If your going through this - swing a reply n let me know. Hope everyone is safe coz im screamin'

[rav3n]

hi @Fadednfried223 talking about addiction and substance abuse can be hard, and it shows real strength in being able to open up here. i'm so sorry to hear about things you've had to endure these last few years, that's a lot to process and hold.

it can be hard when our coping tools ends up being something unhealthy and risky, and i can see that you've been working hard in changing that - great work on getting clean off that other drug! 

getting clean can be challenging on your own, and having professional support and guidance with the process can be helpful. would you be open to reaching out to a professional for support? Turning Point has a variety of drug, alcohol and addiction based services, feel free to explore the one that suits you best: Help for clients and families

i've had family members who have gone through substance abuse, and due to the stigma around it, these members didn't get the right support and it left a large impact on us. you deserve to be supported, know that we're rooting for you. we're here for you. 💙